I’m not anti-social, but close to it
Written by Annie on March 27th, 2009It’s only been one week since March Break ended and I’m already feeling the boringness of school again. School has never been particularly interesting, but it’s worse than usual right now. My schedule for this semester is not interesting at all.
We’ve been reading Julius Caesar in English. I’ll admit, I like Shakespeare. I have Sonnet 116 memorized. I think that A Midsummer Night’s Dream is amazing. But tragedies aren’t really my thing. We spend all class reading aloud the play. Listening to a bunch of high school students stumbling over old English in not-at-all iambic pentameter for 75 minutes? Drives me crazy.
I’ve noticed lately how little social interaction I have during the day. It concerns me. I rarely talk to people on my way to or back from school, as I take a bus route that only about five other people in the school take. I don’t really talk to people during class, because most of my seating arrangements are around people that don’t talk much (or aren’t willing to talk to me). It’s hard to talk during a lecture anyway. As for lunch and in between classes… I’m not in my best state in a noisy hallway or cafeteria. I eat lunch in a group, but I’ll admit I don’t contribute much to conversations.
However, during the last ten minutes of lunch I hang out under the staircase (where it’s quiet) with this super happy girl I made friends with this year. She is optimistic and cheerful and amazing, though surprisingly dating a guy who I find is to be the completely opposite this. Anyway, I hang out with her and her positive energy keeps me in pretty good spirits for the first ten minutes of math. The boring math lectures sucks up that mood after that though.
I’ve been so tired lately that I haven’t even gone out this entire week, evenings or after school. No movies, coffees, lunch, shopping… I’ve been having difficulty not falling asleep on the bus ride home. All this tiredness and emotionlessness isn’t good. I’m going to Vancouver for a band trip in about three weeks and I am not excited for it at all. I think I should be excited, but I’m not quite sure.
I’ve been telling myself that next week, I’m going to be less anti-social. I don’t want to be the anti-social girl. Once upon a time, they called me the happy, energetic one.
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I felt like that a lot last year. I’d have wayy too much homework and then all I’d want to do is just go home and sleep.
I think it actually has a lot to do with your interest with school. Like last year I hated my classes; this year I love them and I love the people in mine so I’m a lot happier.
I guess you just kind of have to get outside the box and introduce yourself to people, who knows you could make a great friend!
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Hi Annie! Thanks for stopping by my blog! I’m always surprised to have people discover me out of what is seemingly left field. I can’t imagine where you might have picked up my link! Thanks!
Anyway, when I was in high school, I used to feel very much the same way you do about my social life. I would make all these vows to try and not be antisocial, but honestly I wouldn’t push it! Just be yourself, and when it’s time for things to liven up, they will. Were you to push yourself too much, you might do something you’ll regret!
I don’t really have much advice for you in terms of school though. You’ll get through it though, I’m sure. Good luck with everything!
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Kari - Yup, I just about hate my classes. My classes last semester were much better, or at least the teachers were?
Asia - I find links from comments on others’ blogs. I love reading other people’s stuff